I really don't know...
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: The news
Topic: Off schedule
I reallly just don't know anymore. I went to my traffic court hearing. That didn't go great. It went okay, I got 2 pts. I traveled out to my new house again to play golf with my dad, then drove 1 1/2 to the town where my hearing was, stayed in a nice hotel, woke up with 4 hours or less of sleep again, and had to go to court just to have the fine decreased by only a couple jaxons. It cost more to drive there! The judge didn't even listen, and very supprizingly too. It was strange how he treated me unfair opposed to the other people with minor tickets like me who got off with a 20.00 fine. Mine was 100.00, very strange. I even talked to a securty gurad at the hotel (it was a small town), who knew the jugde very well, I told him I couldn't sleep. I gave him my information on my case in conversation, and he said that everyone who goes into court there gets off almost scott-free, and that at most I'd have a 50.00 fine with no points. When I got up to the stand, I started to explain that it was late at night, and that I am sorry, he inturruped and sentenced me. Why is this happening to me if I've only done well? I got rid of TRASH in my life, and even people and things even close to trash. I am successful, and then I'm puahed down again, but this time, it's his memory. Although I am no longer associated with my ex, and have only become stronger and more of an adult by it ending, bad karma has came to me in these tickets arriving, and mostly how the judge is quick to judge, like I am being emotionally chaced by bad to try and get me to become bad again. It doesn't discourage me to do well, but it does make me want to get the rest of my thousands of dollars of stuff back, which I admit, in itself, is becoming pretty bad. But I will stick to not bothering with it, and hope my friends and parents, well, just my parents now b/c dumbass kept calling and calling my friend who wasn't trying to talk to him about that, well, I'll let my parents handle it and continue to get my degrees.
Sience I have pulled my head on my shoulders, my mom, my sister, my dad, and my aunt have all kept in touch with there life troubles. I know I have to deal with myself, but I also have been given a gift with handeling other peoples situations and shouldn't be selfish. I really helped my family so far, and now things are happy. Everyone, even my dad, keeps crying. They have tears when they take a look at my growing in life, tears of happiness, and tears that they hope they never have to see the day a "foe of life comes to take away their baby girl", that was part of a song my dad kept in mind for years, hoping that it would come true and the song would finish. Now it has, "and there is time to heal". Just catching things like seeing my mom talking to the neighbors about how great I am. How well I've done. I wish this happiness never ends, but that is a wish unlikely to come true, I'm living in the preasent, and reality is harsh. But I love how things turned out.
Tomorrow, hopefully my car will be out of the shop, I can get a job, get an income, and be ON TRACK! Pray for me, you know I'll be preying for you.

NEW HOUSE!
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Green Day/Wake me up when... XM Top 20 on 20
Topic: I'm so happy...
I'm getting my own house. It's only one floor, but it's location is perfect. My older sister get a house too, but her's is far from home. Mine isn't, but if I can get into school near the house, then I woln't have to share! It's supposta be a summer house for my family, but if I can get into the college near the location, It's all mine, free until I'm 21! YAY! It will be ready around December, so I gotta apply for winter semister. I visited the house, and it's in a great neighborhood, and has a famous golf course in my back yard. I played for free, and it was great. I beat my dad on a few holes. They all said I had potential as a golfer, and should take advantage of the lessons. My dad knows the owner of the foundation, and is doing work with him devoloping this new site to extend the famousness of the previous golf courses. At the clubhouse, theres alot of wealthy successful men all eyeballin me! SEXY! I gotta go study, wish me luck!

Journel2
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Aqua Teen Hunger Force
Topic: Hmmm...
Uhhh, so a lil' bit earlier tonight, I saw the exorcism of emily rose or w/e. I really don't watch to many scary movies, but this movie was freaky. I'm 19 too, and I was adopted on halloween, and I too have always noticed that around 3:00am, freaky shit happens. So it is now 4:06, woah, yea, that counting thing was freaky too... well, i guess i can sleep now. I wasn't that scared though, just thinking about it freaks me out. My friend dylan was really freaked out, he wouldn't even talk about it, and wouldn't go home after he dropped me off. His car was overheating, but he woulda left when he was bored, hmm... i dunno. But it was pretty funny. Well, I'm definatly still caffinated from that tazo tea. Thats good stuff. I lost at least 20 pounds fast sence I started drinking it. That, or it could be that I get out more, that I'm eating the right stuff at the right time.. Now I'm boring myself... I miss my bf. He wanted to move in with me, but I can't handle that this soon... I'm actually getting over my bad relationship in a healthy way rather than bottling it all up. Damn, what's with all these adult swim shows being about baby's and prego people. *Sigh*, well,, hmm,, yea, so how bout them yankies? LOL, yea, I dunno, but, hmm. yeah! ALRIGHTY! Time for a Ciggeratte, or a Blow Pop, either one... That's my new thing, for some reason I always hafta have something in my mouth. Gum, Blow Pops, Tootsie Roll Pops, Ciggerattes, my thumb,,,, yeaa, I can see where this is going... so lemmi stop, LOL. I already had my account taken away once, so $&@! that! I'm so bored, OHH! That's right, I hooked up everything in my room all togather! My Bose system is hooked up to my tv & my XM, and my XBOX and PS2 are hooked up to my Bose, it's awsome, and I even have all the remotes. What's with systems having so many remotes, why can't people just create there own remotes that has absolutly everything they want/need on one D@mn thing!? Tv, Stero, Cable, Ps2, Xm, VCR, It's BS! ALL MY GAMES AND DVDS ARE GONE OR DESTROYED THANKX TO MY EX! He has thousands of dollars worth of my life sitting god knows where, and I have nothing! He even wants his stuff back! I HAVE NOTHING! AND, HE HAD THE NERVE TO CUSS ME OUT FOR SUM BS, MAKING UP PROBLEMS TO MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY PROBALLY. I just want to get on with my life, and if I could, safely and soundly get back some of my shit... Insted, I was threatend by my Ex-Bf's-friend that he wants to crash his car (unexitsing, two damn poor to afford to fix his POS he wrecked) into my garage and take everything of value,, thats BS,, I welcome it, I would love for him to do any vandalizing stuff to my property, lol, I'd invite them to smile as well! lol, if they did, maby I could get them all in jail where they should of been before I rescued them from Shady Grove Station. All of my speeding tickets I got from that Dumb@$$! It was because I was asleep, but no, driving & sleeping at the weel isn't crazy.. yeah, okie Dumb@$$... I'm sick of this shit, Why is it when I finally successfully dumped bf trash and have riches and happiness he tries to keep me around with sum bs, sayin i'm prank calling his gf, (supposta be my friend), when I NEVER CONTACT THEM! Actually, it's qquite the opposite, yea, he calls me at 12-5 in the MORNING! And they don't leave messages, they call and call and call again, knowing that I refuse to change that phone, knowing that I woln't speak to him EVER (as in EvER in my lifetime) EVER again! Furthermore, KNOWING that they're not supposta deal with me, call me, talk to me, ever again, by speaking to my friends, my bf, and my dad. I had to hold my bf back, lol, he would kick the shit outta him, but he's a gentleman so he behaved when I told him to calm down,, Thankgod they stopped calling, I don't know what he would have done if they actually cussed me out (for re-laying a message) on the phone rather than online. He was in NC, and was planning on flying back just to deal with the situation, lol. That's sum good man. He stands up for me when I've tried with no success, or if I can't, or if he gets offended at someone, lol, he's stood up alot and said stuff right when I was there, and unlike my ex, can back it all up! My ex never stood up for me, or on rare occasion, he'd say something while I wasn't there... oh well, lost cause, I have to look towards my successful future. I have it all set, but I just need to take it all for myself. I can't be dwelling on the past if I'm to move foward, no matter how bothersome he is. I'm glad I got to vent some. Well, I'll post later. KIT

Bored but working on it...
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Bow Wow ft. Omarion - Let Me Hold You - MTV2
Topic: Off schedule
My Theme Song Right now I'm blown b/c my schedule is all off. I woke up today at 8:00pm. I can't go anywhere on my own b/c my licence was suspended. I got a ticket or two for speeding. I really don't know how ppl get off tickets completely. I usually get a lowered fine and reduced speed, but still! If anyone has some tips for what to say to the Cops, tell me. If it wasn't for those tickets I could leave my house without bumming a ride from someone. NE ways, I just got out of a really ruff relationship, hence my theme song. I've been so successful lately. I'm very proud of how I am doing. Suprizingly, I have a happy stable life. I was perplexed earlier on how fast I accomplished alot of things after such things happen to me. My mother was even saying I was way to young to go through what I had to. I am only 19, she's right. Or was she talking about the situations he put me into? He was abusive towards my dog for no reason, he lied, stole from my purse, continued his relationships with his friends who raped me, didn't do anything while his friends would grab me, and told me "I could have done more to get him off me"... That was the lowest stature I ever was. Being treated like that sucked, and whats worse is he didn't learn anything from the break up. I dumped him, and kicked him out. Then he started going out with this girl who was supposta be my best friend. She looked like me back then, but thinner, ( now I'm shinning in excelance, so that problem is solved). OH! and my Ex also force fed me as if I had an eating problem, dressed me in sweat clothes, and wouldn't let me actually go out when the time came to unless he was going! Can we say pressed?! I don't like writing about drama, i hate drama as it is... NE ways, I suppose I'll watch a movie on demand. That feature is my FAV!